Party Pooper

I am both feeling frustrated and lacking the energy to deal with it.

The textbook that was ordered turned out to be the wrong one. The new and correct one comes bundled with two supplements that I have never seen, and the publisher's website is being very coy as to what their contents are.

This makes it difficult to plan out the syllabus.

Also, class starts Monday.

Further, it does not help that I'm feeling cross and cynical and burnt out already about the whole enterprise, not just the textbook. I'm not interested in the teaching for its own sake, but rather I am doing this because I need the money and D's department chair was in a bind and needed an adjunct at the last minute.

It is tiring being on a campus filling with excited energy and not feeling engaged by or part of it.

D., though encouraging, has never fully grasped the emotional and functional distinctions between adjunct and visiting; when he was an adjunct, it was at an institution where the majority of teachers were adjuncts, rather than the other way around. So he doesn't get on a gut level how disaffected I'm feeling, and how the institutional structure does more to reinforce this than alleviate it.

This is just a JOB, and yet everyone seems to think that I should be thrilled by the chance to teach again.

I'm not. Honestly, truly, I'm not.

Comments

[Keri]

Being an adjunct is so very tough, even when you've got the full co-operation of textbook publishers and advance notice of your schedules and whatnot. Hang in there!

[Pilgrim/Heretic]

Oof. I'm sorry. Hang in there...

[jo(e)]

(o)

[Pica]

Oof, from here too. Sorry it seems like such a slog. Sorry it *is* such a slog.

[timna]

sorry to hear this. hope you're finding something to find pleasure in. any good pictures lately?

[The Unacademic]

Long live the invisible adjunct and academicgame....