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    That which nourishes us

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    The forces of entropy and beauty at work

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April 2007

2007.04.19

Back on the Pseudonymity Rag

What is it this week?  Lately it feels like we're reprising a whole bunch of tired old blogging debates, with very little progress having been made since the last iteration.  (See.)

This time, I'm referrring to the rumblings that the Nasty, Rude Blogosphere Is Filled with Nasty, Rude People Who Would All Become Nice and Polite If They Were Required to Use Real Names, and the related belief that People Who Blog in the Nasty, Rude Blogosphere Are the Ones Who Need to Make the Nasty, Rude Masses Behave If They Don't Want to Be the Victims of Nasty, Rude Attacks.

(And not to mention the underlying belief that The Blogosphere Is a Nasty, Rude Place and Having People Be Nasty and Rude to You Is Inevitable.)

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2007.04.18

Solipcism

Is there something wrong with me that I don't "get" why people are so upset about what happened at Virginia Tech?

I mean, I understand that it was a horrible, violent event in which people died. But, personally, it doesn't strike my heart the way it clearly is for other people. I didn't know any of these people, and while I feel sad about them in the abstract, I can't see what's so special and moving about their deaths. People die every day, some in great numbers by violence, some in great numbers individually by accident, some because of neglect or need or treatable illness. Nor do I feel compelled to learn all the little details, the numbers of dead and injured, the names of the dormitory, the identity of the killer, the emails sent or not sent. (And yet I unwillingly know about them anyway, just by osmosis.)

Is my outrage meter broken? Or am I just tired of the way the media likes to seize on these dramatic stories and beat them into the ground until all the humanity is gone - while simultaneously ignoring the everyday tragedies of less "newsworthy" individuals? The way this has become a kind of sick spectator sport for many* of the uninvolved? I don't know.

I should feel badly about this event. But I don't. I don't feel anything about it, except an irritation that I can't escape other people talking about it, and this feeling that something's wrong with me because of that.

I don't know which puzzles me more - that this is so important and moving for so many people for whom the victims are complete strangers, or that it isn't, for me.

* I say many, but not all, because I do recognize that for some people, the emotional reaction they have is deep and wordless, rather than shallow and contrived. There's a difference between weeping helplessly for the victims and flipping channels for the latest juicy tidbit, between mourning and collecting tragedies like stamps.

In any case, I find myself having neither reaction, and puzzled by both, though sympathetically in the case of the former.

2007.04.17

The More Things Change...

...the more things stay the same.  In the wake of the recent examples of male bloggers' condescension towards their female counterparts (and no, this is actually not another installment of Where Are the Female Bloggers), I appreciated reading this woman's scathing response to those who insult women as a whole by singling out one or two to praise her abilities as "exceptional."

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2007.04.16

Visual DNA

c/o Purls Beyond Price

Testing the Neo

This is my first post written on my new Neo.  Whee!

And the process is very simple and cool - I just hook the Neo up to the computer, open my blog window, and press "send" - and the text is put in the window, ready for publishing!

2007.04.13

New Toy

I just purchased an AlphaSmart Neo.  Basically, it's a portable keyboard with file storage - for me, it's not a replacement for the laptop, but rather for paper notebooks while traveling.  I'd been reading a lot of reviews about it, most of them waving their arms with joy, and I have to say, I agree.  It is very cool, and I look forward to writing a lot on it - including blog posts.

2007.04.12

Vernation

Snow is blowing sideways past the spring tulips this morning.  The first word I spoke today was an obscenity when I stepped out the door and observed this. 

The manic-depressive quality of seasonal change here is one of the things that I continue to find a challenge.  It flies in the face of my expectations, expectations shaped by years of living in a coastal environment.  For me, the compelling thing about pacific seasonal change is that it is subtle and steady.  Once winter begins to slide into spring, it's like the motion of a mudslide: all downhill and no stopping it.  Here, seasonal change is like a cage match, a grudge cage match, with the seasons throwing each other into the dirt and one crowing its triumph until the other reaches out, grabs an ankle, and pulls the erstwhile victor down. 

The flowers are struggling and the birds are confused, and they are not the only ones.  I've been staggering around this week feeling out-of-sorts and sleep-deprived.  When I do have energy, it's a restless, hectic sort.  And it's not just me; similar feelings of lethargy alternating with hyperactivity were afflicting the members of my yoga class, and our student workers can't seem to decide between yawning days and ones where they come in filled with frightening levels of energy.

Around here, people like to grouse about Daylight Savings Time, blaming it for everything under the not-yet-risen sun.  My body certainly sympathizes, especially when I pry it loose from my warm dark bed and go lurching about the house trying to find light switches and persuade them to emulate sunrise.  I think it's more than that.  It's not just a matter of one hour, or even getting up in the dark when before one wasn't. 

I think it's our bodies rebelling against what appears to be a backwards flow of the seasons.  It was getting brighter, and warmer, and birds were singing territorially and blooms were bustin' out all over.  Now, the blooms are withering and falling over, and it's cold and dark and snowing

Given this, perhaps it is appropriate to salute the darkly dawning snow with a rude word.

2007.04.11

Product and Process

I have come to the conclusion that I am a product person rather than a process one.  By this I mean that whenever I'm doing an activity that results in a finished object, I tend to be far more excited by the idea of the object, and its being finished, than I am by the steps needed to produce it. 

This is not to say that I do not respect or even enjoy process, particularly if it is process without an obvious end, such as yoga or hiking or puttering around the garden.  Knitting is a tactile pleasure, I find the sound and feel of my fingers on a keyboard rewarding, watching a plant grow is engaging, and so on. 

Yet even in those cases, I tend to find it hard to act without a goal of some sort.  It may be a vague goal, like hiking until I'm tired, or doing yoga for thirty minutes, or recording the day's plant development with my camera, but it's there, nonetheless.  Truely aimless activity is not something I do well.  I get fidgetty and find it hard to keep going except in very, very rare cases where the activity is so purely engaging that I don't think about doing it, I just do it.

Perhaps this is a longwinded way of saying that I find it hard to turn off the calculating part of my brain and just be.  It'd be tempting to blame my years of grad school for this, but I remember all too well being a kid who wanted to rush through projects in order to hold in my sweaty little fist the finished whatever as soon as I could.  I spoiled sewing projects by rushing through the steps.  I grew impatient with ambitious drawings that took forever to complete (your patience hasn't been taxed until you've tried to fill up a huge piece of white paper with tiny little drawings of coins for your illustrated dragon to lie on).  Even now I can't just walk out of the house and wander around; I feel a need to set a destination, or some other limit on the activity so that I know when I am "done."

Perhaps this is also a longwinded way of saying that I'm getting frustrated and tired with my current job.  It is almost entirely process-based, with the added torture of the few goals frequently being shifting ones, or, in the worst cases, meaningless ones (the kind where you spend hours working on a project, only to be told toward the end that the project has been cancelled or changed such that you need to toss all that work).  I need to see tangible evidence of my labors, and it is really hard to come by.  (Then I read this - heh.  Sounds all too familiar - read, especially, the related letters.)

Perhaps too I am rambling away in order to complain about blogging and my current paltry readership.  I know it's not fair to complain, as I'm the one who's been only sporadically committed to this blog of late - and it is my own blog - and I've had trouble figuring out what its current incarnation looks like.  But, for me, the point of blogging has always been to engage with people.  You, dear readers, are my "product" - you are for what I write in order to receive.  Without you, this blog literally has no purpose.  If I want to write for writing's sake, I have a laptop that I can pound on night and day until the cows come home.  What makes a blog different is the promise of interaction. 

So, perhaps, this is in the end a very longwinded way of saying, I miss my readers.  How can I get you back?

2007.04.10

Form and Function

The other week, a stay in a fashionably modern-minimalist boutique hotel got me thinking about form and function.  It might perhaps surprise anyone who visits my house or sees my desk, but I am a minimalist at heart.  Pretty much everything I own tends to be clean in outline and devoid of frou-frou.  I like my bowls simple, my tables straightforward, my clothes logo-free.  I have a few possessions that deviate from this rule in small details, like a shirt with an embroidered neckline, but even then I'm not fond of fussy objects.  I like clean lines and shapes, and things that are what they are.

Why the hotel made me think of this was because the objects in our hotel room were minimalist - but they were the beta version of minimalism.  (Japanese design, pared down to its essentials over generations, is the polished final release.)  The bathroom, in particular, epitomized the problems when form precedes function.  The room was tiled, on the floors, one of the walls, and the entirety of the shower stall, in small black squares with an irridescent purple grain.  The toilet was low and black.  Lights were small and recessed. There were three circular mirrors, one large, two small.  A clear glass wall and door separated the shower from the rest of the bathroom.  The counter and sink were made of greenish-black slate; the sink itself was a flat-bottomed square depression.  The drain stopper was a flat silver disc that rotated in the drain to permit or impede the flow of water. The knobs and faucets in shower and over sink were brushed metal pipes.  There was a single low towel bar about five inches above the back of the toilet, and a single tubular knob projecting from the single plain white wall opposite the mirrors.  Everything looked quite cool, but the functionality was haphazard.

I would not want to be the person who cleaned the bathroom.  The flat bottom of the sink meant that it didn't drain properly.  The glass and the tiles must have been very difficult to keep free of water marks and stains.  The black toilet - ditto.  (Using it was rather disturbing, like sitting atop a shiny black hole of nothingness.)  The nearly unusable towel bar and knob made a mockery of the hotel's plea that guests reuse their towels to save energy and water.  The lights were so small and recessed it was hard to get a good close-up view of oneself in the mirror.  The knobs in the shower linked water temperature to not only the turn of the top dial, but to the flow of water, governed by a second rotating knob.  (You'd turn the top knob all the way to full, which produced a stream of warm-to-hot water, and then you rotated the second one to produce either a soft spray of warm-to-hot water, or a narrow stream of hot.)  The room was beautiful on the surface, but it needed another hundred years of people complaining and fiddling and polishing before it worked as well as it looked.

On the other hand, there are other things that are functional, but in which style is lacking - ugly sweaters, NYC taxi cabs, the average computer keyboard.  Form can be given direction by function - a cup-holder will tend to be round and recessed, a writing implement tapering and cylindrical - but there are a lot of kludges out there in the world, things that do their job well enough that people tolerate a degree of inelegance and clunkiness.  Off the rack clothing, for instance, which fits only a few people perfectly, and most people adequately, or airline or automobile seats, which fit no one well and everyone potentially. 

It is in the point where form and function meet that you find perfection.  The carved wooden bowl that fits perfectly in a single cupped hand, yet holds enough soup to fill your belly.  That one pair of pants that flatters your shape without chafing or pinching or flapping.  The pen that works so well that you cease to think about it as you write. 

The problem is that this point is only reached through a long process of use and refinement.  Design principles get you started, both with form and with function, but eventually the object will have to be put into use.  People will use it in unexpected ways, holding their hair up with chopsticks, cleaning their nails with their pocket knives, whacking insects with their shoes, using screwdrivers to chip ice out of blocks.  It is the use, the daily engagement of person with object, that eventually hones the form of a functional object.  Intelligent design gets you faster off the starting block, but it is the slow process of fitting object to the demands of its environment, its evolution across generations of use, that makes it perfect.

2007.04.06

Believing, Breathing, Being

The other day I was eating breakfast with an atheist, and somehow we ended up talking about god.  It was a peculiar conversation, in that he was politely leaving room for the belief in god, and I was leaving room for nonbelief. 

But it was one thing in particular that he said that stuck with me.  One of the reasons he felt he could understand or tolerate a belief in god was that it did form the basis on which to build community, that the shared belief in a deity could bring a group of people together. 

This struck me because this was not a way of thinking about god to which I'd given much thought.  I have thought about a church serving such a function, but not a belief in god itself. 

I think that this is because my own sense of god is so idiosyncratic - in its literal sense of arising from my own temperament - that I have difficulty imagining sharing it with another, let alone a community of others.  My sense of god exists on the gut level, in the wonder and awe I feel in the presence of transcendence, in my experiences with the non-human world.  There is nothing solid or objective I can point to and believe that others can sense it as I do.  This makes a good condition for tolerance, as I have no reason to believe my truth is anyone else's, let alone Truth, but it is a poor one on which to build a particular community.

I say a particular community, because my sense of god is in its essence a connective one, but it is a connection that is so all-encompassing so as to render the notion all but meaningless (or, to shift the emphasis, all and without precise meaning).  When you feel a kinship to the squishy soil and the dangling maple leaves, defining community as one group of human beings feels limited and silly.

Perhaps this is why I feel awkward and embarassed in the presence of badge-wearing believers.  I am not immune to the urge to belong and then to advertise belonging - I've looked at religiously symbolic jewelry on the internet, after all - but belonging to a community of believers and sharing belief are not the same thing.  Reading avowedly "spiritual" literature makes me irritated, both for the unspecificity of language about the sacred and for the impression of clothed nakedness it almost inevitably evokes.  Belief for me is raw and visceral; it is not something I can speak of easily in the abstract, for it exists below the level of language.  It is something so personal, as well, that it is not well expressed without a concommitant baring of the soul down to its roots, and perhaps not even then.  If the devil lies in the details, god is for me in the sum of them - but in a way that preserves their detail-ness within the interconnected whole. 

So in some ways I share the atheists' impatience with believers and the wooly-headed tribalism that so often rides along with the profession of belief.  Yet that numinous feeling remains, and I cannot shake it.  I believe, without willing it.  I believe, because I am, because I breathe and exist in the world.  I don't think my belief is strong enough to build elaborate social structures atop it, or use it to justify intolerance, but neither is it something I can just give up.  I breathe, and believe, and that is enough.  For me.