Work has been tiring this week. Partly it's been the frustration of dealing with interruptions, partly being short on sleep. I'm grateful that I have some flexibility in when I show up at work (any time before 10am is okay, so long as I work my full eight hours) but I'm not doing so well on the going-to-bed side of the equation. I should get out of the habit of doing crosswords in bed before sleep; it makes it hard to go to sleep without them, even when I've stayed up past my bedtime and my eyes are crossing from sleepiness.
The whole internship thing is wearing me out too in its quiet way. I am beginning to lean towards the advice of those who recommend asking for a year's deferral, even as I simultaneously send in a reservation fee for one of my housing options (maybe I can ask to defer it, too). Dorothea's point about it being hard to think big when one's financial situation is shaky is dead on. A year's grace would be good, in that I'd be able to set aside a decent nest egg if I work at it, and if I can't muster the discipline to save that money, it'd be a good indication that I don't care enough about the endeavor to pursue it.
On the other hand, I'm afraid of asking for the deferral and risking losing the opportunity entirely. Perhaps I should contact my would-be supervisor and explain the situation to him? Would this be smart, or annoying, or downright stupid?
Perhaps a slow year would be a good thing. Most creatures that metamorphose into different forms do so while resting, quietly, in a small space without outside demands. Why would I be different?
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