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2003.06.28

The Value of Grad School

I've been trying, over the last day, to figure out why I am having such difficulty "thinking positive" as Kevin Walzer suggests.

I think partly it is because I do, deep down, feel that any career outside academia does, indeed, represent a waste of the seven years I spent in graduate school. This is not because I did not come out of grad school with skills that an employer may or will value. It is because the quality of that appreciation is quite likely to be different from my own, and because what such an employer is likely to value are things I did not need to attend grad school to obtain. When I look at my new resume, I see a long list of practical skills, like "Used PowerPoint to enhance public presentations" or "Developed a database using Excel to track student performance" or even "Produced analytical summaries of others' performance and writing," that really have very little relation to grad school beyond context. I never took a class in PowerPoint while in grad school -- did you? I figured out how to make an Excel spreadsheet for tracking my students' assignment and participation grades on my own. I do not remember more than the most informal instruction in how to contact an archivist, arrange an interview and begin working through the documents; most of this I figured out on my own, albeit in response to the impetus created by classes and professors' assignments. I am presuming that these are the sorts of things that make me valuable to future employers -- my skill set and my ability to add to it on my own initiative -- but did I need to go to grad school to obtain them?

What I did learn in grad school -- as a matter of formal training -- covered the writing of historiographic essays, learning how to parse arguments quickly and accurately, how to identify a school of thought, and more specific information about trends in ideas. My minor field exams required knowledge of a general topic area and of scholars' arguments about it. So too for the orals, with the added ingredient of knowing where to situate myself and my work within that larger body of knowledge. These things, to me, were the real essence of grad school, the knowledge that I could not obtain working alone. Will a future employer find these abilities as valuable?

When I hear these arguments about the value of my degree to employers, the analogy that comes first to mind is that of a person wearing an antique pin that belonged to a much loved relative from the time she was a girl, and which was given to the person when she was thirteen and scared about entering high school. She meets someone in an elevator while wearing the pin, and that person says, "Hey, nice pin. How much is it worth?" Both would agree that the pin is valuable -- but do they share the same sense of value?




{edit} Kevin's post is actually helpful; I don't want to give the impression that I'm including it among the mindlessly chirpy optimists. (Indeed, Kevin takes care to distance himself from that kind of fluff.) I'm not in a space where I can fully appreciate it yet, but other folks might be.

2003.06.27

Demurral

Earlier, Invisible Adjunct posted about Mary Dillard Johnson's article "What Else Can I Do? And Other Frequent Questions." In it, Johnson talks about how an academic can begin thinking about moving out of academia into the wider world of work.

Some of what she has to say is useful in a vague way, and her suggestion (which IA quoted) that looking at the NY Times "commitment" pages might be a good place to explore career possibilities is delightfully humorous.

I must take a grain of salt when she suggests "Read Do What You Are, a helpful guide by Paul D. Tieger and Barbara Barron-Tieger that uses personality as an additional factor to consider in making career choices. For a comprehensive and sensible view of the whole career-search process, I still recommend the classic and frequently updated What Color Is Your Parachute? by Richard Bolles. I think it is also worth looking at the classified ads in major newspapers, not so much to find a job opening (although that is always a possibility), but to find out how employers think about their needs, how they describe the duties and requirements of different types of jobs."

I read the former, and it is not very helpful (the latter is the one that language hat threw from him). You start with one of those personality quizzes to chart you on intro/extroversion, feeling/thinking, sensing/judging, etc. then read about your "matches." This is all well and good, but it doesn't address the complaint I've been making over and over again:

This is not only about what you might like to do, it is about what your skills qualify you to do!

I am reminded yet again about the time in grad school when I went to the career center to tentatively explore alternatives (just in case). The tests I took advised me that I had the makings of a nuclear physicist -- 'nuf said.

And then there's this bit of happy-happy-joy-joy we've all heard before about transferable skills (and note, again, the assumption that leaving academia is a chosen course, not a forced one):

"Question: My adviser is urging me to apply for jobs this coming academic cycle, but I'm not sure whether I want an academic career or not. I feel that I should be sure and that I will have wasted the last six years if I don't become a professor. But I think I want to look into other options. What should I do?

"Answer: Your uncertainty and conflict are common to many graduate students in their final years of study. When you decided to go to graduate school, you may well have thought you wanted to become a professor. Then for the first few years of graduate school you concentrated on your academic work and thought no more of careers. There is no reason to feel guilty if you don't want an academic career now. People change; circumstances change. And there's no reason to feel that you have wasted years of your life if you don't stay in academe."

Oh really?

She continues,

"During the course of getting your Ph.D. you have developed not only a specific area of expertise but also an array of skills that are transferable to many types of careers. And in completing all the requirements of the degree, you have demonstrated your ability to do something hard and to accomplish something significant. That is experience that many employers will value."

Surely the Chronicle can do better than this.

Learning to Ask for Help

I think I have figured out the lesson that is embedded in my not gaining an academic job this season. It is learning how to ask for help.

I've always tended to be someone who does things on her own. Partly it is that it is difficult to work with other people successfully, and I'm a nit-picker when it comes to my own work. More so, I think, is that somewhere along the line I developed this belief that one should not need to ask for help and that it is vaguely improper to do so. The impropriety is important; I suffer from a mild form of what D. and I have called "vampire disease" -- I'm reluctant to do things that I'm uncertain I've been invited or permitted to do (hence the name, like the vampire who can't enter a house without an invitation).

In some ways, that sense of vampire propriety is a good thing, but I've learned that I have a lousy sense of what other people judge "proper" and so tend to err on the side of caution. This includes asking people for help; not only does it run against that belief in self-sufficiency (which, oddly, only runs one way -- I'm always delighted to help), but I'm also afraid that I'll offend someone by asking. Stupid, I know, but there it is.

Anyway, being unemployed begins to change that equation. So does blogging, where I can feel that I'm not imposing on people, but rather inviting them in to offer advice (or not) as they wish. I'm somewhat ashamed to admit, therefore, that when I did finally act on the advice of some of my visitors and emailed my non-blog friends and family about my situation, I was surprised at the response. Everyone was sympathetic and helpful, and that is why I feel ashamed -- I should not be surprised that people who care about me would respond that way. But I was, and I believe that these might be the lessons I need to learn:

To be willing to ask for help from those who are willing to offer it, and to gracefully accept it when it is given.

And to not so badly misjudge my friends.

Huzzah!

Working again, thanks to the expertise and hard work of Phil Ringnalda. THANK YOU!

2003.06.26

Upgrades

Well, Blogger has upgraded its input screen. At present, I can see this is not going to make me happy. First, it's not letting me code in my special font classes. Second, it refuses to type a capital "w"! They show up in the preview, but not in the original screen.

Feh.

2003.06.25

Parrot Wisdom

Here's what the virtual fortune-telling parrot has told me: "CYBER KILI SAYS ... You have picked Lord Murugan! You are likely to be caught in a tangle with too many thoughts. Never mind, whatever decision you make, Lord Murugan is with you. Do everything with sincerity and devotion. Success is always yours!

Hmm...

Cool and Overcast

Its tail wet from rain
The squirrel ransacks the feeder
Shells and water fall

2003.06.24

WaitingOn the advice of D.

Waiting

On the advice of D. and some of the people who have posted here, I have returned all my job search books to the library. I was tempted to do what Language Hat did, and fling them from me, but they are library books and thus not mine to fling.

I've been trying to think of what my next step should be in this transition, but there really isn't one. That is, there isn't one that can be done to any effect right now. What I should be doing at this point is all those things I will (hopefully?) not have time for once I am working the ol' 9 to 5. I should be revising chapters, working on my book review, crunching through my ARCDesktop GIS tutorial, and -- shudder -- packing. What I want to be doing is running around looking at new apartments and learning how to work at places that require me to wear nylons and suits. (Well, maybe "want" is a little strong in that last case.) I do have general plans, such as emailing all my friends to let them know of my move and to ask them to keep an eye out for work for me. But, like packing, that is not something to do a month in advance of the move. In a week or two, yes. But I'm not there yet, and it's bugging me.

In other words, I want to be in motion towards something, not from something. Nor do I want to sit brooding about things to do that I can't yet do.

So much these days is about waiting, and it's hard to persuade myself that waiting is okay, and not "wasting time."



A Matter of PerspectiveIt is

A Matter of Perspective

It is hot -- and damp
So am I -- gently sweating
Wind is not so bad.

LethargyI don't know what is

Lethargy

I don't know what is up with me these past few days -- I've been staying up much too late and sleeping in much too late and getting very little done in between. I really need to snap myself out of it!

I am very glad, therefore, that Invisible Adjunct is exploring the mysteries of resumés and career searching this week. One, I am too tired this week to rant and whine about these things in my usual way. Two, she has a larger readership, so I am looking forward to reading the comments and advice she gets. (I'm very appreciative about the suggestions people have made to me here, so I'm hoping that they might post similar comments at IA's and get wider coverage!)